Its Me

I just thought of exploring myself a bit and thought of writing this blog..whenever wherever there is a column called ABOUT ME ..i really dont know what to write..I stay puzzled just as an elementary kid stays puzzled when asked what is 2+3....is this tab that hard to fill??? I really dont know...when someone ask about me i really dont know how to answer..I get sad for no reason..and very happy again for no reason...but thats not bad..its always good to be happy and smiling..I remain confused most of the time..still have to toss a coin to choose the best ,cant make a decision....

But I am always honest and always speak the truth..the last time i lied was when I was in 8th and failed in Maths.... scared of papa beating me..I altered my marks and signed as my father..very much like in many hindi movies...but then i really did that..see proof of how honest i am... :) ...as a kid i used to draw and paint very good...my papa was very proud looking at my paintings and I too enjoed doing that...but as growing up I dont know how I lost those..those enthusiasm ,those zeal....I never thought I would land up in corporate world...I did my professional course because I have to but again no one forced me...Papa was happy with whatever I did....I was good , papa's and mama's kid till i was in my SSC..so nice..:)

Then came the time to land up in HSC..teen agers..growing up.....and from paintings , drawings , studies it was only girls and friends therafter...

I was after a girl for some 5-6 years...believe me as I told I am very honest..:) I liked her..I really dont know what really attracted me but then she was a girl of her kind..guess that was the work of harmones inside...... :).....I proposed her and she said no.....



And then Hell Was on my head...i was terribly sad..crying...ruining myself...but hold on..wait for a sec........


If even for a moment you had thought something like this had happened then you are absolutely wrong..:)

It didnt really bothered me..I realised its obvious..how can any Girl just accept anyone..just because anyone likes her...Everyone has her own choice....I really didnt felt bad..yeah immediately i was sad....but was never angry or ever tried to chase her after that....I saw her liked her,dreamt of her and one day just away from her forever..guys not getting senti..just telling few facts... :)

I really didnt did just to show off ..it just happened and i am completely out of it today..:)

I guess doing all those teen age stuffs really carried me away from things which I really liked to do....now that i am out of everything..thinking of going back and doing painting..just want to paint my past...:)

But the very thought that some silly things which gave momentory pleasures actually killed the real me...makes me cross...:).........No Regrets though..